Documentary Filmmaker & Production in Peru (Fixer)

The eclipse with the moon in Aquarius, The Chinese New Year and the transcendental conjunction of Saturn and Neptune in Aries this week motivated me to write a bit about my spiritual life today. 

For many people ‘Spirituality’ sounds like a ‘Zen’ person trying to be in peace all the time, but the meaning I have for this is more like an evolving awareness.

A few weeks ago, due to an overwhelming emotional season, I discovered that I am a High Sensitive Person (HSP) after taking a test by the American psychologist Elaine Aron, who identified this personality trait in 1991.

This made me wonder, what makes someone an HSP? Were we born like this? Or did life shape us this way? And what is it useful for? I began researching it myself, and I found the same answer across different areas of interpretation, which I explain below.

My Astrology energy

All my life I knew I had this intense energy for life, but I always related this energy directly to being a Scorpio sign according to astrology. It was not until recent months that I started to understand my whole birth chart, and this made much more sense to me.

For many people, astrology can mean the ‘horoscopes’ but this is not like that. In fact, I don’t believe in horoscopes. What a birth chart tells me are the exact positions of the planets, moon, sun, etc, and others at the precise time I was born, and how this has a direct impact on me, my personality, my energy, my interactions, and overall what I need to learn on my life path for my evolution. 

My Chillhood senses

This huge curiosity for discovering the world every day as part of my personality, gave me the capacity to analyze and proces experiences in a particular way in order to find answers or tools to face situations that happened around me. For example, many children remember little bit about their childhood (I tested this with friends and my brother) but you can ask me anything and I can tell you even details of many specific situations that not even my parents can believe how many things I can remember from my childhood.

I recently discovered that I learnt to read emotions more than words. I was always perceptive, always analyzing situations, people, behaviours and overall absorbing a huge amount of information. Later in my adult life, I realized I was very different from others. I learnd to process things in a very different way, and this developed my senses of recognizing patterns, the behind the scenes of situations, people and messages. Nowadays, I can confidently tell you that ‘I can feel people’. But this didn’t come as a miracle skill that life simply gave me. I developed all of this throughout my life without knowing it! And this is the first time I am aware of it.

I recently listened a podcast where a scientist explained how, in the past, before language existed, humans we used to communicate without words, just telepatically! A human ability that, sadly, we have lost over the centuries, and something that maybe we can still see in some cases of mothers who have children with ‘Autism’. So this totally resonated with me and the way I have perceived the world since I was a child.

My connection with healers in the world

Maybe because I feel people, situations and places and something I was doing unconsciously over the years, I started to feel a close connection with archeological places, rituals, and special events like solstices, equinoxes, full moons, etc. I even produced and filmed documentaries of healers in Peru and a short in Canada, being these my favourite topics.

Feeling everything became part of my life without noticing it, as it used to be for our ancestors. Year by year, I started meeting more people in the spiritual world from the jungle and Andes of Peru, and also in other countries like Alaska and Canada.

When I look back, I always think, who in the world travels to Alaska or Canada with the intention of meeting healers or masters or elders within native communities? Really? Certainly this was nothing touristic more than a pure honest connection itself. It happened without planning it and it became one of the most remarkable experiences of my trips. 

The night I went to Mama Simona mountain (The most sacred mountain in Cusco) I had a dream that might sound total clichle, but I am still processing it until these days. She told me, ‘To heal others, you have to heal yourself’. When I woke up, I started laughing just thinking how cliche this phrase sounds, and that I definitely didn’t want to be a healer at all.

For me, until that moment, the role of a ‘Healer’ meant to provide emotional support to others and what I understood weeks later is that indeed I needed to learn to provide emotional support to myself. A few days later, this took me to a fascinating time learning Neuroscience tools to regulate my Nervious system, breathing techniques and many other things that I wrote in a previous post.

I was in shock when a few months ago an Elder from the Blackfoot native community in Alberta, Canada wanted to baptize me with a bird name from his culture. In Blackfoot culture, they usually only do this to people from their community, and it has a very important meaning. Who knows what motivated him to offer to do that to me that but I was in totally shock!. Circumstances didn’t allow it to happen, but I was fortunate to be invited to a native festival called “Sundance,” which can only be attended by invitation from a native person.

Master Psycho plants

One important thing that kept me away for so long about wanting to enter in the world of healers, was that I didn’t want to try any psychoactive plants like mushrooms or Ayahuasca in order to have the ability to connect with myself or with the different worlds or entities that exist around us.

I always felt aware that I was born as a human being in a world of humans. For me trying psycho plants felt like trying to escape to a different world.

I have always felt very aware of the actions I take, fully conscious without the use of any drug or plant. I felt that if something, either a plant or any other thing could have a different impact on my decisions, for better or worse, it would make me feel manipulated by it. I do have a lot of respect for psycho plants and I believe they can help many people with specific addictions or traumas, but this was not my case so for a long time, I stayed away from Master Plants.

A few months ago, I finally felt the call to try mushrooms first time in Canada, and a few weeks ago Wachuma (San Pedro, the cactus drink) and Willka in Peru. For me it was a kinda neutral experience afterall. People said this opens your counsciosness, but what I felt was that my inner state was already like that in its natural form. There wasn’t any change or different feeling, more than a relaxing physical sensation for a few hours, but nothing that took me to a different level of understanding.

For me, this was a huge relief because in the end, it confirmed that I was already following my heart. It was leading me on the right path, to believe in my self-awareness every day, as I had already been doing it, without the need for anything else for my whole life.

By the way, the picture you see here, it was a real coca leaf in shape of a heart I found in front of me while walking in Cusco!! I certainly was having heavy days trying to understand all what I wrote here and indeed, universe was giving signs to heal my heart.

Numerology 33

A few days ago, a friend told me about numerology and I started researching more about. I found out that I carry the number 33. According to numerology, this is one of the three master numbers in the world (11 ,22 and 33) and rare to find them in the world due to its pathlife which literally comes here to transform, evolve and in many ways ends up as healers. I don’t know much about it but I was surprised to keep getting signs about this healing thing!

The real Healers

Many of the ‘commercial Healers’ sell themselves like this; however in many cases their realities hide chaotic situations with their families and zero coherence with what they do to help others.

After analyzing all my recent experiences from the universe, for me the real healers are all of us, we all have the capacity to open awareness and become more conscious about the world in order to feel others, to feel situations, perceive emotions, and open our senses. But this is not a granted thing skill or gift given by the universe just because. It’s a superpower we are all able to develop and a huge part of our evolution.

The more connected we are with ourselves, the more we feel, and the more we develop these abilities. In the end, the real healing is not for others, it is for ourselves.

The healing to self regulate our emotions, the healing to feel ourselves without the need for external stimulations like dopamine, which many times ends in addictions. And not just from drugs; work can also be an addiction, travels without any purpose can be an escape to your current life, and toxic partners can also be an addiction like narcisists which give you these hits of drama everyday. People nowadays are looking for healers in order to find solutions to their lives but the real healer are inside us!

All my life I have been carrying this self-awareness and these emotional experiences since I was a child, and I didn’t realized it until now. My belief is that life gave me the senses to feel deeply, but it was my constant looking for lessons in life that expanded these senses into the way I feel and connect with others, myself and the universe these days. 

A clear message I see now from the universe is that, because of all my life experiences, I have developed many more tools than other people to understand things and life in a very integral way, not just rationally, but also through a mix of emotions, vibrations and frequencies around me.

This life will never stop giving us lessons until the day we die. So here I am, taking the energy of these events happening in the sky and breathing slowly. And at the same time, feeling a huge grattitude that all this is so aligned with my work as a Filmmaker and Producer with the intentions to keep spreading the best of people, energy, vibrations and frequencies to the world!

Have a great season of life with more clarity!

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Thanks for reading me.

Lizeth Yarlequé